I found this on a site for women who have had miscarriages. I am having a hard time with sorting my emotions. One minute I am sad, yet hopeful and another minute I am angry and discouraged and don't want to try again. I hope time will heal this loss, but at the same time, I don't want to forget that there was a life in me. Just because it wasn't born doesn't mean that I didn't love him or her and want to hold them in my arms...
I've been waiting for you for such a long time
You're always on my mind
And I'm laying awake most of the night
Waiting to hold you tight
Now that I do, and look at you
MY heart is breaking, this can't be true
Lost you before I found you
Gone before you came
But I love you just the same
Missed you before I met you
On Earth we never can, but in heaven we'll meet again
Close to my soul, close to my heart
Right from the start
Lost in time, lost in space
Can't wait to see your face
Now that I do, and look at you
MY heart is breaking, this can't be true
Lost you before I found you
Gone before you came
But I love you just the same
Missed you before I met you
On Earth we never can, but in heaven we'll meet again
Sometimes I find myself wondering what to do
With this pain that I'm going through
But I know one day, God will take me away
And I'm coming home to you
And when I do, and look at you
My heart is healing, I know it's true
Lost you before I found you
Gone before you came
But I love you just the same
Missed you before I met you
On Earth we never can, but in heaven we'll meet again
In heaven we'll meet again
Oh Lisa, I know it's not the same, but sometimes I have those same thoughts when I think about infertility. I can't imagine how you must feel, and I hate that you have to go through this, but I think you are taking it really well, and you are a great example to all of us. Don't give up hope.
ReplyDeleteWow, what a song. My heart is full for you. Please know that you are not alone - really - there are many of us who have suffered as you and we feel for you - you are so loved by many and there are prayers being offered for you. May you feel of our love and find peace and comfort.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your feelings with us- I know that can be hard. I think that song helps us know how you feel. We love you and wish we could take away your pain, but know that the Savior is able to help heal you and give you a promise of hope. Don't let this discourage you. I can't wait until we have a little half Lisa, half Brian running around. What a lucky kid because you've already proven that you're a great mommy!
ReplyDeleteHey Lisa I'm sorry for what you went through.and I'm glad everything is going well for you now.
ReplyDeleteI just thought of this as I was reading your post... My mom's 1st pregnancy was a miscarriage, then she had me then when she was pregnant with my sister she had a strong feeling that she was the first baby she lost... I just throught that was interesting and I just wanted to share that. No one really knows how that works but I think a mother is always right about her feelings. :)